My soul feels cluttered. Maybe yours does too.

I have two half-written posts and no complete thoughts to show for it. Nothing is “ready” to be presented to you. I have ideas that can’t seem to connect or resolve into something meaningful to serve up. I am looking for something to make sense, and right now, nothing seems to.

So tonight I read this post from Emily P. Freeman that’s been in my inbox since yesterday and thought,

Wow. Has she been in my head lately?

In this process of de-cluttering to move into our new home, my soul has become cluttered. The boxes of books that sat for yet another weekend, the pictures that still haven’t been hung, the unfinished, disorganized pieces of this house that we are making into a home somehow represent just a bit of the inner facets of my soul. Some spaces feel settled, some spaces don’t.

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The picture collage that’s waiting to be hung.

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These boxes of books… why oh why are you still sitting there unpacked?

 

 

In the midst of this season of life, two big events collided – a new home and new responsibilities at work. They followed on the heels of big events like my dad’s open heart surgery, my husbands cardiac ablation, Thanksgiving and Christmas. Why I would expect that I’d have everything all tidied up and ready for outsiders to look in I will never know. This blog seems to be the place where I tidy up my thoughts and present them in some sort of organized, cohesive fashion so that others can be encouraged. I’m impatient with myself for not having it all together here.

Right now, all I have is soul clutter, and at some level, I have to be okay with that.

It’s not that I like it to be this way, but this is a season. It’s not forever. It’s not defining my life for all eternity. Even still, I don’t like it. It feels prickly, for lack of a better word. It’s not soft and comfortable and easy. It’s hard and uncomfortable and full of effort.

But it is what it is, and perspective learned from experience tells me that this will not last forever. I will not be in this untidy space for long. Soon, a natural rhythm of life will take over and my soul will have some desperately needed space to breathe, stretch out and take in the moments that breathe life into me.

Until then, it behooves me (isn’t that just such a funny word!) to remember this:

“Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.” – Matthew 6:24

Is your soul cluttered? Be encouraged. This won’t last forever. Be still. Be real. Be you.

 

10 Comments on “My soul feels cluttered. Maybe yours does too.

  1. At this present time, I don’t have soul clutter; however, I have had in the past – many times! You are wise to call it what it is and know it’s not the way it’s going to be forever. Just keep doing the “next thing” and sooner or later the clutter will be dealt with….until the next barrage arrives! We’re alive and living brings with it stuff & clutter!!!!

  2. Reminds me of the time I tried to clear the clutter off the top of my dryer, where I found a to do list that read, Clear OFF Top of Dryer!

  3. I love the way you put this…soul clutter! Many times I feel I also have soul clutter. And so happy to know is doesn’t last!

    Thanks for sharing!

  4. When I moved I remember all the boxes giving me a feeling of craziness inside. I kept thinking once everything is organized i will be okay. And it did help to get everything out of boxes, but still we were in a new place and we were still trying to find our way. 7 months later. We are finally starting to put down our roots and I feel so blessed and not cluttered. It takes time. Keep pushing you will find your way.

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