31 Grace-full Days: Day 8 – Hindsight

I waited patiently for the Lord; he turned to me and heard my cry. He lifted me out of the slimy pit, out of the mud and mire; he set my feet on a rock and gave me a firm place to stand. He put a new song in my mouth, a hymn of praise to our God. – Psalm 40:1-3

Sometimes it’s good to look back – back to where we came from. Back to difficult, ugly, painful times. Back to places and spaces that we’d rather forget.

Looking back gives us that clear vision of hindsight. If I could have known then what I know now, I wouldn’t have been so afraid or anxious or overwhelmed.

Last night, as I was drifting off to sleep, my mind went back; back to the place not long ago when divorce stood in the way of all I had known. I was in an unfamiliar place, a place that was dark and scary and overwhelming. I felt the Lord say to me,

I was with you then, I am with you now. Look back and remember how I brought you through.

Hindsight.

I don’t know about you, but it’s hard for me to trust when I don’t have control. When things are out of my hands and in the hands of another I find that my anxiety rises and I grasp to control whatever I can. Maybe David struggled with that too and that’s why he wrote about his anxiety and struggle and pain in so many of the Psalms. Maybe David needed to look back now and then.

Hindsight.

I read this Psalm this morning; it was a gentle reminder that the Lord truly did bring me up out of the mud and mire and set my feet on a rock where I could stand safely and securely. To say that God restored my life after divorce is an understatement. I am astounded every day at the extent to which he did.

Sometimes to look forward, we first have to look back.

My Grace-full pause: When I’m anxious, I need to pause and look back and remember.

This post is installment #8 of a 31 day writing challenge.  You can read the rest of my posts here:

Day oneDay twoDay three, Day four, Day five, Day sixDay seven

 

 

 

One Comment on “31 Grace-full Days: Day 8 – Hindsight

  1. Sometimes to look forward, we have to look back. Yes! Sometimes to look back, we have to be still and initiate that space in our lives to reflect! Thank you for doing that for the rest of us to see!

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